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 HOW DO I FORGET SOMEBODY AND MOVE ON??
Why can't i simply call him and say sorry and live happily ever after? Why can't HE do it??
He seems happy with his life.
BUT how do i get over this?!
This is TORCHER in its purest form.
I want to end this.
Please.
:( 

life is a bitch.

You know what hurts the most?
When you mean very little to the person who means SO much to you.
I am talking about my so called best friend, who also happens to be the guy i like. He didn't call me for an entire week (when we used to talk for hours EVERYDAY) and when he finally does, he behaves as if everything is normal and complains about how I never call him. I admit, i have ego issues and i can't pick up the phone and randomly dial his number. I just cannot disturb anyone. But he could have messaged me or on facebook chat. No he didn't. So after a week of no talks, we had a fight. I called him that very day, to say sorry for my rudeness, but both his phones were not reachable or busy. Then i pinged him on chat, and said 'i called you'. He said 'so?' and that just got to me. I said 'nothing' and signed off.
Now we both are online, and we both have our phones but neither of us would call or message first.
The worst part is i think about this ALL the freaking time when its probably the last thing on his mind. His happy statuses and likes piss me off more than ever. All he cares about is his friends and Call of Duty!
While i am obsessing over this awful situation, he's busy firing of some virtual guns and putting on statuses about power cut offs. 
I can't even begin to describe how i feel.
I am sick of crying myself to sleep at nights. 
Forgetting and moving on is more painful than getting my eyebrows done (which hurt a lot by the way).
But i'll be so proud if i get over this whole thing. 
I am trying though. He has his happy little life which doesn't need me. Not talking to me didn't affect him half as much as it affected me. And if i don't matter to him, then its over. I won't interfere anymore. 
& we don't talk in school anyway so its not like I've to be bothered.
I'll read this post when i feel like talking to him.
 
Much Later,
Love,
S

i can't even think of a subject anymore.

 Everything sucks.
I wish i could migrate off to Alaska or someplace.
:/

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What is it with guys and ignorance? I mean seriously, one day they talk to you like you're the most special person alive and the next they don't even bother to call. Or the next day OR the even the next day for that matter.
Maybe i am so amazingly boring that you decided to disappear on me. 
Well, I am sorry it took you so long.
Good for you, probably now you'll have a better life. And don't even think i'll beg you to take me back.
I admit that right now i do pretend that it doesn't matter, your absence but pretty soon it would turn real, i wouldn't have to pretend anymore, you won't affect me for REAL.

I know this makes no sense but i JUST had to post it. 

Much Later,
Love,
S
 
PS - Gym is such a bad idea, my entire body hurts like a bitch.

you make me sick.

 I learnt a lesson hard way.
Never rely yourself so much on someone, that it hurts unbearably when they let you down.
That includes family. 
We tend to forget this, but we are ALONE.

& have to deal with our problems on our own.

Sad truth.

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 Okay, that was a lame attempt at a good subject. Its a song by 'The scorpions'. I haven't been here in forever. And i don't know what weird power possessed me at 2 in the night to just drop by and say... hi?
Or maybe i was just hoping that my best friend (who i probably more than just like) would ping me on facebook cos was he was online (and he went off a moment ago without saying anything -.-) or somebody would turn up on skype and help me pass time.
Anyway, who needs real people anyway?

I watched '500 days of a summer' 15 minutes back. I don't know why people call it romantic. I think that Summer is one classic bitch. 
Apart from that I watched '3 weeks notice' and '13 going 30'. I have a one month vacation to waste (except i feel a bit guilty, lazing around all day doing nothing or going out partying, getting TOTALLY drunk and singing, with a little tears 'Here without you' on top of my lungs cos hey, it was karaoke alright?! & then my friend's mom finds out about it and BEATS her, which makes her inhuman because you don't hit your own daughter with a pair of slippers, and asks me to stay away from her which is the sad part -.-) but seriously who even bothers to study, minus the holiday homework which i am SO going to start tomorrow! Plus I wrote four pages of my very own book so that's a big deal right?
Maybe in the last one week of my lovely holidays, I will finally go to this horrible market and buy my school books from the Cambridge University Press.
 
My sister will be leaving for her job in July. I love her and i can't see her go! I mean i know i wouldn't ever admit it to anyone but i already have nightmares where she goes away and i am left all alone with my parents and two brothers who torment me till i am finally on the streets with a stuffed toy which is by the way a FROG, like not even a cuddly bear or something. So, if she moves well, to the next city, I will beg my parents to let me go with her. Or maybe they will move too, i know they can't live without her either. I just HOPE although not too much cos i don't want my heart breaking :p

Anyway, School's going to be freak-ish when it opens up. We'll move to this new building and yes, it is extending up to 4 in the afternoon! THAT long. What will i do from 8 to 4?! Yikes! 
I know, awful isn't? I just hope everyone protests or something and they drop this silly idea.
 
On a random note, I tried these clothes my sister got for her portfolio today, dresses and heels et al. Well, I am glad to report that they fit me fine and I am NOT fat.
*blows trumpet*
YES!
Thank god, I was so worried i'd look like a huge panda or worse, penguin but hey, i look pretty good. I'll put on some pics the next time. I might consider modelling after high school although I prefer fashion magazine editor. Just saying.
Its my lifelong dream, you know like having a yacht or living in Four Seasons.
 
All problems seem tiny when i think of my future. Whatever I do right now, i know the end everything will be just OK. I remember reading it in a newspaper column by some actor. I remember it ever since. He said it doesn't matter if you don't get into your dream college or company or don't find the perfect house or maybe a spouse but in the end, when you look back, you'll realize things turned out be just fine and at the finish line, you really are perfectly OK (:
 
I'll get some sleep now.
 
Much Later,
Love,
S  
 
PS - my best friend IM'ed me! Yay?
 

Day 03 – A song that makes you happy

 Basically, I am into rock and metal. But, Pop is one unavoidable genre and we all love it no matter what ;p
I love this preppy number.
We'll be alright - Travie Mccoy.


We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we dont sleep
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

Tonight you wont be by your self-self
Just leave your problems on the shelf-shelf
You wont wanna be nowhere else-else
So lets go, so lets go (we got the club like)

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on lets
Get drunk, toast it up, we dont give a fu—

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we dont sleep
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah

We walk the streets like we dont care-care
Our middle fingers in the air-air
So come and join us if you dare-dare
Yeah lets go, yeah lets go (we got the club like)

(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on lets
Get drunk, toast it up, we dont give a fu—

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we dont sleep
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, dont it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-dont it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) Well be alright (ahh!)

It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, dont it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-dont it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) Well be alright (uh-huh, ha-ha)

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we dont sleep
Got our friends, got the night
Well be alright

Throw our hands in the air
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Pretty girls everywhere
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Got our friends, got the night
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Well be alright

It is such a happy song! It reminds you of all the good times you had and all that are yet to come. It cheers me up everytime. Plus it features in this new movie 'Prom' which looks promising even though its disney :P

Much Later
Love
S

Day 02 – Your least favorite song

 I missed out on yesterday so I am going to post Day - 02 first.
Your least favorite song. Hmmm.
I do have one, i like it but don't LIKE it.
Chop Suey - System of a Down.


I know. Its an epic song. CHOP SUEY.
And I totally like the intro  guitar and the part where they go slow 'when angels deserve to die'. However, its does sound stupid when they do the superfast singing thing.

And the lyrics are beyond me.

(wake up)
grab a brush and put on a little make up
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
(hide the scars to fade away the shakeup)
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
here you go create another fable
you wanted to
grab a brush and put on a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
you wanted to
why i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die


wake up
(wake up)
grab a brush and put on a little make up
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
(hide the scars to fade away the shakeup)
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
here you go create another fable
you wanted to
grab a brush and put on a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
you wanted to
why i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die

father father father father
father into your hand ,i commend my spirit
father into your hand ,why have you forsaken me
in your eyes forsaken me
in your thoughts forsaken me
in your heart forsaken me ohh
trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die

Much Later,
Love,
S

Day 01 - Your favorite song.

Choosing just ONE favorite song is perhaps the most difficult thing to do. That is why i am choosing my current favorite song.
Lifesize by a Fine Frenzy.


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Lyrics

we stood so tall we caught a plane
by the wing and held it safe
until we found it a place to land
we laid across the ocean wide,
bridged the gap in record time,
the people traveled across and
kissed our hands

all for love, we become
larger than lifesize, wondersome
great in the eyes of someone
larger than lifesize we become,
great in the eyes of someone


we smiled so bright the sun went down
rose above the maddening crowd
we lit the streets with the sweetest glow
we held the globe and made it turn
wandered through the universe
the men of science observed through telescopes

all for love, we become

larger than lifesize, wondersome
great in the eyes of someone
larger than lifesize we become,
great in the eyes of someone

larger than lifesize, we become
larger than lifesize we become,
great in the eyes of someone


I've highlighted the lines i like the best. I heard this song in an episode of How i met your mother. Ever since, I love it. Its a happy-but-not-too-cheesy-or-lame song.
:)

Much Later,
Love,
S

30-Day Song Challenge

 And here i am, still procrastinating when i have my math book in front of me.
Anyway, I found this awesome 30-Day Song Challenge -

Day 01 – Your favorite song
Day 02 – Your least favorite song
Day 03 – A song that makes you happy
Day 04 – A song that makes you sad
Day 05 – A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 – A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 – A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 – A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 – A song that you can dance to
Day 10 – A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 – A song from your favorite band
Day 12 – A song from a band you hate
Day 13 – A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 – A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 – A song that describes you
Day 16 – A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 – A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 – A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 – A song from your favorite album
Day 20 – A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 – A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 – A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 – A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 – A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 – A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 – A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 – A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 – A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 – A song from your childhood
Day 30 – Your favorite song at this time last year
I am so doing this :)

Much Later,
Love,
S

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